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Storytelling 1

Storytelling 1

I'm in the Motherland! I'll write more about this later but, I wanted to share my experience of seeing one of my heroes talk in person, about important things to me, like storytelling and inspiration. I wrote this last part on the train after leaving a Neil Gaiman talk at BAM. An extremely horrible boy introduced me to Neil Gaiman when I was 16. He was awful, but he is the one who told me about an arts high school in Golden Valley that saved my life, and told me about Neil Gaiman, who would be my constant companion through high school to my now adult life. A bad person brought much beauty into my life, not from the relationship, but from what he introduced me to.  Neil's stories have always been with me through my hardest times. I always found a magic girl who I could identify with, that I could really see myself as (Door, Delight/Delirium, Yvaine, Zorya Polunochnaya..) a magic girl far far away that couldn't really be brought down to earth. My husband fell in love with me for this reason, and I was able to grow from a painful first love experience into a solid, loving, respectful adult marriage (we've been together 8 years) and I am now kind of able to be a human on this earth. Sort of, not really haha. I try! I think? Anyway, I wrote this right away after seeing Neil and I knew I would put up pictures later so...

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I’m almost done with all of the things that were pre-world building. I put away a lot of paintings and have blank walls in the studio. I’m almost done with my Gilmore girls paintings. I just don’t like not finishing things. Almost almost done.

Lane looks good   

Lane looks good

 

I hate this, but thats OK, I'll fix it later

I hate this, but thats OK, I'll fix it later

Phobos and Deimos 2 will just not cut me any slack

Phobos and Deimos 2 will just not cut me any slack

IDK if you can tell but I hate all of these, Karen says I just need to put them away and not look at them for a while but I want to throw them in the garbage. I won't, but husband will yell at me (he's an art conservator, IDK)

I’m on the train heading back after seeing Neil Gaiman at Bam. I have 15% battery on my phone and the train is stuck so hopefully I can get some of this finished.

It’s hard heading back into being a teenage girl again, I listen to a lot of Tori Amos on repeat. He said something about “taking pain and making art from it” and “that’s what pearls do, they take something that’s painful and make a pearl from it” I probably butchered what he said . Just imagine him talking about pain, pearls and art, in a lovely British accent. You have to take that and channel it, which is all I feel like I’m doing now. Channeling 15 year old Alli and trying to make sense of that through what inspired me to make things.

I love Neil Gaiman. His books got me through really hard times as a teen. I think we all have that book, or album, or movie or whatever where we would wake up in tears at 3:00 AM and read for comfort. Thank God for Neil and Tori, because without them I don’t think I could have got through my teens years.

He talked about all of my favorites, Sandman, American Gods, Neverwhere, Good Omens, Ocean at the end of the Lane. He talks about what inspired him, which character identified with most. What came from where. All of it was lovely. Brook Gladstone was interviewing him which was a delightful foil. Everything about it was great.

Snowmagadden happened again. I was at my studio and really didn’t want to leave, I was with my best friend and i just wanted to go home. But I’m listening to that mythology class  and it was talking about Celtic mythology , and Gods before more Gods, and I was like “well, that’s a sign, I have to go see another world builder.

What was really great was how many people braved the snow and saw him. All ages, I was so happy young people were there. I sat next to two cute 20 something girls (one of which snort laughed at all of his jokes) and in a few rows in front of me there was a balding pony tail man. Almost every nerd in Brooklyn was there. I felt very at home. So yes he was great, but it was great to see how much people love him and his stories.

In short, all of my pre 2018 work is being put away, my Saturn return is over, and I’m finally in my sowing stage. I can touch up a few of the older pieces but mostly they are done and I don’t have to think about them again, ever. 

 

Back Home From the Motherland

Back Home From the Motherland

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