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Hi there!

Welcome to my diary. I write about my painting, inspiration, and process. Welcome to my painting world.

xo, alli

Kimmy Schmidt = Helping

Kimmy Schmidt = Helping

April 5th, 2018

TV Show in Background - Kimmy Schmidt

It's hard to write about my painting when I don't feel like I've done anything productive. Especially when I agonize over photoshop collages for weeks. 

I haven't done a series of paintings in a while. We are thinking about getting internet in the studio, so it would be helpful for me to get those done there. I do like working on the couch though, and having my cats roll around me. 

Andy is in Canada giving a talk at a conference about hair memorial. My dinner included leftover "Taco Bowl Tuesday" (I made it up,) charosets and Halo Top. If my husband ever left me I think I would eat eggs for dinner every night with salsa and join a bird watching group in Prospect Park. 

I finally figured out the composition for "Inanna Returns from the Underworld/Three Brides" here is the drawing so far

Inanna as Three Brides, with her new entourage

Inanna as Three Brides, with her new entourage

Inanna is still my working title for my heroine. She's based on Persephone/Inanna. Last year I got really into "The Goddess in Everywoman" and "The Goddess Within" and REALLY identified as the Persephone Archetype. I thought "Maybe Artemis? I do like the outdoors a lot, but was a little too boy crazy to be her. Also "Maybe Athena? Over achieving parent pleaser?" no... not in the traditional way. My parents are also too loosey-goosey to have put that much pressure on me. Also, Demeter no, Hesita no, Hera NOOO, Aphrodite the alchemical Goddess? Not quite there yet. Persephone resonated the most with me. 

After reading as much as possible about Persephone I was redirected to Inanna, who is like Persephone but has way more autonomy. And also Mesopotamian. She's the fucking best! Inann tricked a God into giving her knowledge by getting him drunk! She went into the underworld, was resurrected, and lemonade-ed her husband because he didn't mourn her properly! Awesome! That was like, 6,000 years ago! How can you not be obsessed with her? 

So my whole, Eleusinian Mysteries/Inanna/Persephone/Hero's journey thing is taking off. I'll write more about Bride Shows when I have a photo of the drawing done. Everything is meshing together. Slowly though. It's hard painting big again!

Primordial Deity Gaia/Ninhursag

Primordial Deity Gaia/Ninhursag

I'm using Alizarin Crimson for my underpainting. One of my books talks about using a bright color as your underpainting to give warmth to the rest of it. It's fun! I need to sand it, but this really helps with value - I think my weakest point. I really am just trying to squint and mush all of the light and shadows together. I think it's helping? Plus, Sumerians - Ninhursag? That's the best name ever. How can I come up with a name for a primordial deity when the Sumerians named everything so awesome?

Glenn is my mother Gaia/Ninhursag character (Hi Glenn!) I met her in beauty school. I thought she was the coolest, prettiest and funniest person. The first time I sat with her at lunch she yelled at guys cat calling women, She's the best! I don't know if she remembers that? It was great :) 

Rosie Helping

Rosie Helping

Anyway, I feel like its hard to write when I do photoshop collages, or stretch canvases, or just draw fan art. I have to remember it is just as important as making a painting. It takes time to figure out which character your friends/models embody. The personal connection is important. 

I think I got a commission to paint Britney Spears? For a friend of a friend XD

It's Britney Bitch

It's Britney Bitch

Kind of a productive few weeks? Hopefully! This is a transparent red oxide underpainting. I love this tone!

xoxoxo,

Alli :D

Almost an Invalid

Almost an Invalid

Storytelling 1

Storytelling 1