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Hi there!

Welcome to my diary. I write about my painting, inspiration, and process. Welcome to my painting world.

xo, alli

Re-visiting my 20's through Japanese Reality TV

Re-visiting my 20's through Japanese Reality TV

Books on Tape - "The Witches of New York" also re-listening to "Mists of Avalon" "Sweetbitter" and "Crazy Rich Asians" When I need to concentrate hard

Dinners - Embarassing

TV - AMAZING! "Terrace House" and "Ainori Love Wagon" and "Sweetbitter"

Andy is off to Florence to work on marble conservation so I am on my own for a week! Most of my days have been spent running, going to my studio and yelling at the TV "MAKOTO, YOU KNOW YOU LOVE MINORI" or "TATSUYA, YOU DICK, YOU CAN'T ASK OUT ALL THREE OF THEM OUT AT THE SAME TIME" or "God, why isn't everyone all over Mizuki, SHE'S SO PRETTY!!" while drinking vodka and Crystal Light. Also, please watch "Ainori Love Wagon," it is just amazing. Think "Road Rules" in Japan. Everyone is polite and nice, and they still drink just as much as they do in "Road Rules", but they aren't allowed to kiss. Also, you just want Asuka to find true love. Go Hatoume! 

My dinners so far have included popcorn, peanut butter, apple, hard boiled egg, veggie chips, tates, and my collagen green smoothies,  excluding or including some of those things. 

I'm watching a lot of TV shows about young people in the big city, aren't I? Terrace house is cool because they still have their own lives, but live in a house with strangers on TV. "Sweetbitter"... ugh, my love. I loved the book. I love the show, even though it's different. But Tess is every 22 year old that moves to the city. She's so cute, so cringeworthy, and is the biggest mess. You don't want her to hook up with Jake, but you know she has to, because then hopefully she'll meet someone nice, that treats her well? Hopefully? But that might take a while. Also, she wants to do such a good job at work and is always worried about getting fired, remember that feeling!? It was the WORST.

I never want to relive my 20's, but watching all of this stuff helped me rembember BB Alli, who moved to NYC to be a painter, with all of her best friends (who are all still the best) and who even had a boyfriend who lived here already! So romantic! (Not really.) Also, it put into perspective how much tunnel vision you have to have to find a way to support yourself as an artist. I couldn't get a job as a teacher, granted, I was 24, with experience and no skills, except babysitting, haha. So I went to beauty school to get a job with some flexibility.

Thank God. I just want to tell all of those young people that you don't have to go the route that art school or the art world tells you. "You are 23! You have so many mistakes to make! Just pay your rent on time and find a way to make art! Who cares if it's good art! No one does!" I worked my ass off as an assistant stylist and then as hairdresser to get to the point where I can work 3 days a week and spend the rest in my studio. I also have a very supportive boss who wants me to fulfill my dreams (that's huge). That's also advise for 20 somethings, find a mentor that supports you. For me, working my ass off in my 20's paid off. I had a really nice moment in the studio today where I was looking at Edwin Dickinson and John William Waterhouse under paintings and thought "It's 2:00PM and I'm in my studio, this is really nice, so, all that grinding in my 20's paid off, huh.."

Maybe one day I'll apply for a teaching job... If I feel like I can help people. I really like my job now though, I'm kind of like Dolly Parton in "Steel Magnolias" Always thinking about form and content. hah! 

Speaking of form and content...

Trying to bang out the underpainting with color

Trying to bang out the underpainting with color

I've been experimenting with under paintings a lot. Ninhursaag's unerpainting is from my teacher, Michelle Doll at NY Academy of Art. "Three Brides" is a traditional transparent red oxide and white tonal underpainting

As traditional as I can get I think

As traditional as I can get I think

I might add flowers and plants in the transparent red oxide, but honestly I'll probably just do it in color.

 

drawing in animals

drawing in animals

Drawing animals is one of my favorite things. When I work on their widdle faces I just think "ohhhhhh so cuuttteee!! wook at yo face Mrs. Cow!" 

baby drawing!

baby drawing!

Baby's are fun to draw to! You have to really think about their proportions. Also, you can make their eyes bigger to make them even more doll like. :D

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I've been working on a larger, disposable palette, and then I pulled out this old beast and felt so at home. I love wood palettes. The other ones are cleaner, but all of the paint history is on this thing. I really didn't want to do another tonal underpainting, and was looking at a way to approach "Inanna's Decent.. blah blah blah" and found these beauties in my painting books.

Edwin Dickinson ptg from Robert Zeller's "Figurative Artist's Handbook"

Edwin Dickinson ptg from Robert Zeller's "Figurative Artist's Handbook"

from Peter Trippi's "J.W. Waterhouse"

from Peter Trippi's "J.W. Waterhouse"

Waterhouse... My favorite... or one of them. Always trying to get to your level of effortless-ness. I will do my best!

So this is the progression for today...

Am I getting you, Waterhouse?

Am I getting you, Waterhouse?

color patches

color patches

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I kind of like how it is now... haha. So anyway, I'm trying to get there I think, what do you think, Ghost of J.W. Waterhouse?

 

~HOLD UP~ Mizuki just laid into Makoto, for good reason. (He made Yuriko confused and cry) I don't trust you anymore Makoto, you can't send texts lightly. Kudos to Mizuki for standing up for women's rights, again.

Next post will probably be in Firenze!! 

xoxox,

Alli

Eating in Museum Cafes

Eating in Museum Cafes

Almost an Invalid

Almost an Invalid